Sweet Misery

Since I don't have any homework to do, I'll just blog about random stuff that's going on.

School. Ah fuck, I just want junior year to be over already. These past couple of weeks have been hell for me and a bunch of others I know. Well, I don't think it seems like I've been stressing as much as others cause I'm such a fucking slacker. I've been sleeping late though, cause of homework of course. SATs were okay. I'm really hoping for an acceptable score even though I barely studied. I completely winged it. AP tests are this week and next week. AP English isn't until the 14th. I should really start studying cause I did really bad on the practice tests my class has been taking. Ugh, then tryouts for AP/Honors Lit are on the 15th. I doubt I'm gonna get into AP. Honors? Maybe. SAT IIs (US History &Literature) in June... I think I'm actually gonna study for that. What elseee? Um, elections... I lost. I really wanted the position, but it's whatever now. I'm still thinking about whether to run for office in FBLA. Yeahhh, I really need to get my grades up. I wanna raise my english grade to at least an A-, chem to a B-/C+, and trig to a B-/C+. I'm hoping for a 3.4 - 3.6 this semester. -.-

College. Omgggg, everyone's been talking about college these past few weeks. It's getting me super excited and scared at the same time. I reallllly wanna go somewhere in SoCal. They have a bunch of good schools there and I really like the environment. I also wanna get away from Daly City. Maybe I'll regret saying that, but that's what I want for now. My top choice is San Diego State right now. I like UC Irvine too, but I'm not sure if I can really get into a UC, especially with my ugly ass grades. I'm thinking about getting into business administration, but I don't know. I need to do more research. AHH, okay no more college talk. I'm getting myself excited already and I still have my whole senior year to go.

Stuff. Emotionally, I've been having ups and downs. One minute I'm hyper with my friends, the next minute I'm hella quiet and emo. It sucks. My feelings are driving me fucking crazy. I miss the old days A LOT. I think that's one of the main sources of my random sadness. Everything reminds me of... yeah. Next week is... yeah, and it makes me feel... yeah. I'm not gonna be the longest, therefore I'm not gonna be the most memorable. Damn, wth is wrong with me? Have I not made any progress? I honestly thought I did... a little. My wishful thinking is not gonna get me anywhere. I need to move the fuck on with my life.

Sigh, whatever. I used to wish for a rewind button, but now I want a fast forward one.