K-Ci - Conversation (Can I Talk To You)

So I'm reading through some old AIM conversations I've had with people. Some made me cry and some made me smile... aaand I don't know, they just got me thinking I guess. As I was reading, I realized that I like having deep, or like serious conversations about feelings and whatnot. I mean, I didn't say much in some of them, but when I did, it was... interesting. I think it just feels good when I let everything out to whoever I'm having a serious conversation with. I guess anyone that does it would feel good about it, but I think it's different when I do it cause it rarely ever happens. At times I get tired of keeping everything in, but I just can't do it. It's probably cause I don't know what to expect from the other person, and sometimes I don't really wanna know what they're feeling... that's why I always say 'forget it' or 'whatever.'

Reading all these conversations also made me see just how much things have really changed. Like, I read certain things and in my mind I'm just like, 'Wow, that's not even true anymore.' or 'It's no longer like that.' etc. Of course I'll never really know if what I'm thinking is true until the time comes, but yeah... it just sucks.

My bestfriendforeverandFUCKINGalways is leaving in a couple days and I'm not sure if we're gonna get to hang out before he leaves. :[[[